The calendar comes back to it each year. The day she found out about her breast cancer.

Lani Horn (a.k.a. Chemobabe) is a social scientist in her “regular life.” She created ChemoBabe as a persona who could “talk back bluntly to the euphemistic ways people skirt the horror of cancer in everyday conversations.” Lani shares her experiences and concerns about pink culture, the breast cancer Cause, and the industry that sometimes seems to focus more on reproducing itself than eradicating the disease and attending to the needs of the diagnosed. Last year Pink Ribbon Blues republished her essay Attention! — a commentary on Komen’s role in the cancer landscape and the “wee bloggers” who seek to hold the organization accountable.

Here, Lani Horn shares the day she found out she’d been diagnosed with breast cancer. October 9, 2009. Three years ago today.

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  • It’s so powerful seeing Lani and hearing her read her story. I found myself being transported back to my own day, the day I found out, even though I wasn’t thinking about it at all and was completely engrossed in Lani’s story. It makes me wonder at what point, if ever, does cancer stop invoking such strong emotions?

  • It’s remarkable that Lani recorded her experience first in her journal and then on this video. I can see the emotion on her face and hear it in her voice. I have so many trigger dates; my own and my mother’s as well. I know the emotions surrounding these trigger dates will always be there for me, but it’s my hope the intensity of them will lessen with time. I hope so.

  • Phillipa

    Philippa wrote on Facebook: “Thanks for sharing this, I remember watching this last year, realising that we had been diagnosed exactly a week apart. Thinking of ChemoBabe”

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